27.3.05
i've finally come to terms with myself. and i've finally understood why i refuse to blog. it's all the works of escapism. i've landed back on earth, after floating about for too long. watched guang liang's tong hua mv ystday at kbox while cel was singing. it was an absolute tear-jerker! talk about evoking sympathy! perhaps it's guang liang's clean, innocent image that makes his role as a faithful boyfriend doubly convincing. heh. but it was really good. now i look at the song in a different light. mvs just have this innate potential in fixing a particular imagery in its audience, such that the song is now perceived differently....as a story, not just a mere mix of melody and lyrics. phy s test today. DRATS. hope he finds the book. confinement - no way!!
read my horoscope for today from Life, and it seemed to tie in pretty well with what was on my mind. it said to quit the obsession and break away from what causes the trouble in the very first place. curious how it is somewhat dictated by fate that i should read my horoscope only today. or maybe i'm just reading too much into it...but it made good advice nonetheless! i wonder whether horoscopes really exist...or rather, i question their authenticity. are horoscopes just part of a fictitious avenue to guide people out of or towards a particular mental schema? oh wells. what i usually do is believe the good stuff and reject the bad. haha. it's self-deception maybe.
mum's not working today. i hope nothing bad comes out of it. im afraid that she'll start interrogating me once the opportunity arises. pray sis comes home early today. she's an undeniable positive form of distraction for mum...heh. thank god for adorable sisters. :)
we were talking about lying. it gets us out of trouble but it's extremely tiring. the only benefits, it seems, is that lying keeps your creative juices flowing, and it helps you think on your feet faster. hmmm...employing companies eyeing people with these traits should employ kids who are born liars. or people like cel and i, liars made out of circumstances.
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